Damn these stupid dolls.

I think it would have been better if I had never found out about bjds. Because now I want another one. I really want to order a kid delf Bory, and I was planning to order him during the Christmas event, but now I'm starting to feel more and more guilty about wanting to get him. For one thing, I still don't know what to do with Darcy, because half the time I'm mad at him, and the other half of the time he just looks so adorable that I couldn't bear to sell him.
So. Bory. I'm trying to save to pay part of my tuition for college. I'm trying to save so that I can move out of my parents' house sometime in the next twenty years. I'm trying to save in case I end up having to buy a new car in the next few years. And yet. I want to buy this fucking expensive doll for myself for Christmas, all because I want a cute little redheaded freckled boy to be a friend for Hadrian.
So do I do the stupid thing and buy the doll, because it'll make me happy even though it'll take a chunk out of my savings? Or do I do the smart person thing and not buy the doll and just be happy (mostly) with the two boys that I have?
It's this stupid fine line between fun money and saving money. But the thing is, why is it so much easier to justify buying little things (when they all add up in the end), than it is to justify saving and buying just one thing (even if it happens to be a way-too-expensive doll)? Argh.

(sorry for the rant)

(Oh, also? I suck at NaNoWriMo. I didn't finish. (Again.) Didn't even get close. And it's officially not November anymore.)