De-lurking

[cowboyguy]

I feel like I've been in extreme lurk mode lately. I haven't been writing a lot, I haven't been posting, I haven't been reading. I've been trying to understand tumblr randomly scrolling through tumblr and reading stuff on AO3 sometimes.

I don't know. Part of it is from being generally busy. Part of it is from being depressed. Part of it is just feeling that "fandom is changing" feeling, and I want to go back to the days of all Livejournal, where I felt more like I understood things and could keep up.

Lately I just feel overwhelmed. With work. With life. With all the books I need/want to read. With trying to set and keep personal goals. With fandom in general.

Anyway, surprise surprise, I'm still busy and now I have to cut this short because I need to get to work, but basically just de-lurking to say that I'm still alive and I'm hoping I get it together soon and start being more active.

Comments

[anilkex]

I can totally relate to what you wrote, especially the fandom bit. Although I am entrenched in only 1 fandom, I can see it changing on SFF and I'm sure it'll be different in TG's meme. I wrote a fun fic over winter break that took me out of my own writing funk. Maybe it'll make you smile. :) Link is on my Dreamwidth acct here to the story on AO3. Maybe the meme will help? Maybe...I can write you something? I dunno. Wishing I could do something, that's all. :)

[cowboyguy]

Sorry I didn't respond to this sooner! Was gone basically all weekend. Thanks for the support -- I don't know that there's much you can do, unless you want to take my place at my job for the next two weeks, but I definitely appreciate the support. :)

I'm looking forward to tg's meme, too, and hoping that gets me back into a writing mood. I'll take a look at your fic! Thanks for the rec.

I was sorta kinda thinking about whether it would be fun or helpful to try to start a discord chat with some SF folks, just to talk fic ideas and share recs and whatnot. I'm in a Star Wars discord chat and it's been really nice being able to have conversations with fellow fans in almost real time. Reminds me of the good old days when LJ memes were much more active and the comments would come in almost faster than I could keep up with them.